Which Way Did I Go?

Wild thoughts racing through my head.  Stay, go, why am I here, where can i go?  How are you today?  I don't know. I can't tell where I am.  Up? Down? Both?  I'm definitely not in the middle.  Who needs me?  Who do I need?  Losing track of time, of stuff, of where the balance is.  It wasn't expected to last, the peace.  Guess i got a good stretch between.  Better than nothing.  Sleep comes to me now, thats good.  Lost in my other world, this one lets me go.  Floating, not grounded. Will you love me anyway?

When I had no wings to fly.....

Box of Rain

Walk into splintered sunlight
Inch your way through dead dreams
to another land
Maybe you're tired and broken
Your tongue is twisted
with words half spoken
and thoughts unclear
What do you want me to do
to do for you to see you through
A box of rain will ease the pain
and love will see you through

And love is seeing me through

Walk into shining sunlight
Inch my way through sweet dreams
To another land

I might be tired and broken, but
My tongue is softer
My words complete
My thoughts are clear
I want you to love and hold me
To care for me, to see me through
My box of rain will ease the pain

Your love will see me through
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Happy Rez Day to Me!!!!

Wow! I can't believe I'm two already.  As my rez day approached, I wondered where the last two years went.  Not to my surprise, I realize it has been in SL.  If you've been following my blog, then you've been on this journey with me for the last year and i thank you for coming along for the ride.  The people in my second life are as dear to me as those in my first life.  

My personal and professional lives have flourished here, and now my dissertation research keeps my SL time in check (mostly).  What can be better than having an excuse to play, work,and research in my favorite place.

So while my family and RL friends think I'm going to hell in a bucket...at least I'm enjoying the ride. ride, ride ,ride yeah!!!

If I

If I opened my mind

and saw you there

would the wind and the fire

cause much despair?

If I opened my heart

and let you in

would the flowers and birds

know where to begin?

If I sang through the night

and cried in the day

would the powers that be

lock me away?

writers block

what do you do when you want to write - but your mind has been forced to slow down - and creativity no longer flows from your fingertips, sparkling and insightful?  

what do you do when the energy levels dwindle and your brain run at the same speed as the rest of the world, plodding along, getting by?  

how boring.  

     how necessary. 

          or is it...? 

He's Gone

My friend, my confidant, my love.  I am sorry. I will always love you. 

Isn't it Ironic?

I have to laugh at irony.  Over the last week, I have read the first two books of the Twilight series by Stephanie Meyers.  A wonderful modern day Romeo and Juliet love story between a girl, a vampire, and a werewolf.  The series is absolutely engaging and lives up to the expectations set by all my friends and students who have read and recommended it.  It is so well written, that I am in awe of Bella and Edward and Bella's desire to become part of the Cullen family.  Vampires suddenly became "cool".  I like them.

So then why was it that I was shocked and momentarily frightened when vampires moved in next to me in SL?  I raised a wall between our lots.  Then I stepped back and laughed.  Laughed that I could find vampires fascinating in my book fantasy, but frightening in my SL fantasy world.  Is it because my SL world doesn't seem as fantasy-like as a book?  If that is the case...I need to re-examine my perceptions.  Until then, I will wear garlic and a scarf around my neck.  ;-)

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